ive got a cold. it sucks. my mum says its because i never cover up when i go out but i totally do - in winter i always wear fingerless gloves and a scarf with my teeshirt or hoodie, and black skinny-leg jeans. but now im sick and feeling gross. at least i get the day off school, but knowing my luck the pe teacher will die or something and ill miss it. or like some dumb jock will come out or something and ill be sitting here sleepign and not get to say HAHA YOU CALLED ME A FAG NOW I KNOW WHY YOU ASSHOLE!!!! yeah thatd be cool.


so anyway I was reading this blog the other day when i was at alysons and i found the most amazin poem:



Philip Larkin - This Be The Verse

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.


don't you love it? like, i mean, it's not biased, its saying that yeah parents suck, but they were fucked up by there own parents so in a way its not there fault. and it adds a solution, which is to not have kids. i know i wouldnt want to bring a child in to this world, and we are overpopulated anyway.

harley was saying that when he was in year 8 and at his uncles farm he wanted to go sit on a barbed wire fense so it would make him sterile so he wouldnt have to brng a child up in this fucked up sosiety. but he didnt have the guts to in the end because it would hurt so much, and not just, like, in a cutting yourself way, because sometimes you need that relese, but in a much worse way.

so anyway. im sick, it sucks. i was thinking of doing an faq section of the blog next time im at a house with internet acess (im at alysons place at the moment, she and harley took the day off too so were all here. we were going to drink some stuff from alysons parents bar, but im sick so i might not but maybe i will, i dont know)

but anyway, i better go because the movie were watching (napolon dynomite) is finishing and we're gonna walk up to the pizza hut and get lunch. then i have to be back home by three so my little brother sees me when he gets home and if my mum gets home early she wont be suspitious.