you wont fucking believe this. last night i was talking about my birthday and my stepdad was all 'courtney this year your mother and i have decided to give you a joint birthday and christmas present'. it fucking sucks. my birthday is on christmas day and THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS. my mum always used to say that i was the best christmas present she ever got, but then a couple of years ago she got a juicemaker and she doesn't say that anymore.
so i turn 15 on christmas day, and i wanted to have a party or at least a birthday inner but everyones always busy. alyson and harley said they might try to come over on boxing day but i dont know, its not the same.
so i always get crappy christmas AND birthday presents, which soooo doesnt add up to two seperate presents. it fucking sucks.
here's a poem i wrote, that kind of is about that but also kind of about something else. i wrote it last night:
Seasonal Duality
competing with the season
is the reason for the pain
never given my chance to shine
the star on the tree is brighter than my need
so in the background i stay
like a forgotten gift touched upon once
then dismissed and forgotten
they see my pain as if its santa clause
disollutioned and fake
never given my chance to shine
like the christmas lights twinkling their lies
because another was born this day
thousands of years ago, well that is what they all say.
because of a lie i am overlooked
because of corperate greed i am overlook
because of consumerism i am overlooked
once more this season, i am overlooked.
fin.
note: i had a bit about christmas ham and turkey, because im a vegeatarian, but i cut it because i think it still needs some work and it was getting too long.
so i turn 15 on christmas day, and i wanted to have a party or at least a birthday inner but everyones always busy. alyson and harley said they might try to come over on boxing day but i dont know, its not the same.
so i always get crappy christmas AND birthday presents, which soooo doesnt add up to two seperate presents. it fucking sucks.
here's a poem i wrote, that kind of is about that but also kind of about something else. i wrote it last night:
Seasonal Duality
competing with the season
is the reason for the pain
never given my chance to shine
the star on the tree is brighter than my need
so in the background i stay
like a forgotten gift touched upon once
then dismissed and forgotten
they see my pain as if its santa clause
disollutioned and fake
never given my chance to shine
like the christmas lights twinkling their lies
because another was born this day
thousands of years ago, well that is what they all say.
because of a lie i am overlooked
because of corperate greed i am overlook
because of consumerism i am overlooked
once more this season, i am overlooked.
fin.
note: i had a bit about christmas ham and turkey, because im a vegeatarian, but i cut it because i think it still needs some work and it was getting too long.